I Don't Want To

An update of sorts...

Bats- the security of my apartment has been breached by one of these winged creatures. The little guy somehow managed to pry off my window screen in my living room and decided to make my bathroom home. James (home for a week before deployment) caught the little guy and set him free. Tuesday night he came back, shreiking his little bat shreiks and acting a bit disoriented (classic signs of rabies). He again retired to my bathroom, but not before he buzzed me. Boyfriend had returned to Utah by this point so my neighbor Troy got the freaked out crying girl at his door at 9 o'clock at night asking him to come take care of the situation. This time the bat was not caught and set free, but rather, it met a more untimely end. Here's hoping to be bat free the rest of the summer.

James deployed June 4. He is in Ut for a bit and then flies to North Carolina on Monday for training stuff. He gets to come home this weekend and the emotional rollercoaster is just about all I can take. He's gone, he's home, he's gone, he's home. And nothing is ever definite. Their little leader could decide tomorrow that they aren't coming home and that's that. It is definitely tough to get used to and way more stressful than I had anticipated. Here's hoping the year passes quickly.

I realized two days ago that I didn't want to do my job anymore. Which was weird. I normally don't like my job all that much, but I always try to attack it each day and get as much done as I can. Tuesday I sat down and thought "forget it." I was over it and could not bring myself to accomplish more than what I absolutely had to. It was like a scene out of Office Space. I had officially hit "burnt out." The rest of this week hasn't been much better. Here's hoping I get a new job soon.